Thinking the Unthinkable? OfCourse.

I’m tired of my friends hooking up, honestly ready for a new start.

.. sometimes I wonder how I could of missed so much, and gone on thinking I was the problem and never good enough. I know I’m not perfect, but then again, I never said I was. Looking back on our relationship I was naive, I blocked out the bad and filled it with so called good. When in reality it wasn’t. Its not that you were a bad guy, you were just the first good guy I’d met after too many bad ones. I want to thank you for the good times, but I’m done with the past.
I know its a tad late for a new years resolution, but mine is to better myself, and never settle again.

I give up on trying to put a fake smile on my face.

How is it that when I could get anyone I wanted, including you, and then you just give up on me? Did I really let you down that bad?

I told you I wasn’t perfect, I told you I’d fuck up, make you mad, drive you crazy.

You made me the happiest I’ve ever been.

Those 5 years weren’t easy, but I thought they were worth it.

I’m tired of this feeling of emptiness. I’m tired of looking in any direction and seeing something that reminds me of you. I wish for one second that I could watch a chick flick without wanting to die from missing you so much, and remembering how badly I failed.

I have done everything possible to forget you, and somehow you always come back to me. I give up on trying to be happy, trying to find someone else to take you off my mind, trying to show everyone that I’m perfectly okay; I’m not.

You were supposed to keep me safe.

I’m starting to wish I never trusted you in the beginning.

I knew you were too good to be true.